pornstar.

I was talking to Big Sexy about numerous topics surrounding dating.

A topic came to light about dating a pornstar.

It had me thinking…

Would I…would I not…double standards…i’m not sure.

I have been anti relationship for numerous reasons so I had to really dig deep on what I consider a “relationship” and what, if any, the rules are.

I find the idea very hot.

Having a piece of arm candy that just knows the right fucking moves…what more could I ask for…

I think the only negative of dating a pornstar and being boyfriend Nick would be how I know I would be on my toes almost always.

On my toes as in…making sure my boo thing is into me and guarding against all the possibilities of other dudes coming into the picture.

Not from jealousy or insecurity but that’s just how the world is…MESSY.

It would suck that if in a universe where I did date a pornstar, even my favorite one, I don’t think I could handle the reality of him leaving me for another dude.

Like, having the sexiest man fucking dip on me…that would be so embarrassing!

I don’t think my heart could take a loss like that alongside my already losses death took so viciously.

If I could, I would.